Dangerous to Everyone But Her: Gentle Rogue by Johanna Lindsey
The specific thrill of a man who frightens everyone else but is inexplicably, privately gentle with you — who makes […]
The specific thrill of a man who frightens everyone else but is inexplicably, privately gentle with you — who makes […]
A quiet, particular devastation lives in loving someone who looks right through you. Who has known you long enough to see you, and chooses instead to look at you as furniture — present, familiar, not worth examining too closely.
The man who takes everything and then cannot take his eyes off her. Who arrives with force and certainty and the complete confidence of someone who has never encountered a situation he could not command — and then finds himself in the specific, unfamiliar position of being the one who is slowly, quietly, undone.
Being truly seen by someone who had no reason to look twice — who had every social signal telling them to look elsewhere, at someone more obvious, someone whose value had already been established by the room’s consensus — is a very specific thing to experience.
Wishing, in your lowest moment, for someone to simply appear — not to fix it, just to arrive — is a specific kind of fantasy. To be present in the middle of the wreckage, from somewhere outside the situation, unburdened by the context that made the wreckage possible.
The specific torture of wanting someone you have already decided you cannot have — not forbidden by anyone else, but forbidden by your own code, your own loyalty, your own sense of what you owe to the person who trusted you with someone they loved — is a restraint that costs more than prohibition from outside.
The strange intimacy of being trapped somewhere with someone — and realizing, quietly and then less quietly, that you are not as afraid of them as you expected to be — is an emotional situation that romance has understood for a long time.
Watching a controlled man lose his composure — one degree at a time, almost imperceptibly, the edges giving way before the center does — is a particular pleasure.
Not every love story arrives in dramatic gestures. Some of them accumulate in the space between two people who were not looking for anything — through small kindnesses and honest conversation and the gradual understanding that someone else’s presence has become something you did not know you were missing.
A particular kind of hope carries forward in people who have decided they are finished with it — not dead, exactly, but filed away. Decided against. The person who tells themselves: I tried that, and I know what it costs, and I am done now.